A broken wife

I am losing myself

I am going crazy

I am trying to be a wife

I am trying to be a mom

I am trying to care for myself

My marriage is failing

I don’t know what I feel anymore

I take the blame to make it all sound right

In my mind, I think about everything all the time

I can’t ask questions

I get ignored when I speak my mind

I feel unwanted and unloved most of the time

Is that enough to walk away and say goodbye?

I miss you all the time

I can’t tell you anything because its always me who is not right

It’s this or that but its never right

There’s always a fight about trust and time

I just want your attention and love but it’s so hard to find

You blame me for and call me insecure

I just tell you how I feel about everything and more

I am so torn

I want to move on but I am never reassured

I have to learn a-lot but one thing I know is

that you don’t want me anymore

I’m scared of the thought

I am not heard or understood

I suffer from abandonment

How can I be secure with all the rejection

I don’t know whats wrong but I just wanted to feel protected

Now I feel wrong

Now I feel rejected

Now I feel disconnected

Is it all worth it to fight?

-A broken wife